This is My Prayerwall

UPside Down Love...

I recently learn a new meaning in love. Nope, not about sacrifice and neither its about a new way of loving someone. And nah.. I am not in love either :) At least not yet!

I believe though that I am loving as I am living. Not really as how the world says it as in love.. in luv... kinda feeling, but really living a loving life. In fact, most of us are... living a life-love.

Everyone of us have something that we desire in our heart. The least of it, say a baby, also desires her mother's love. And sometimes our desires may not be fulfilled because our expectations are not met. But thats how love comes into place. I guess we are 'brain-washed' by the world that love exist when 2 parties have agreed to allow each other depend on one another, or even take advantage of one another. However, what is really the purest form of love.

I realize that the purest form of love can never be taken away by anyone but ourselves. What do I mean.. say, if I love a person and that person knows it, but does not reciprocate that love... Nothing that anyone in this world can do, can stop me from loving that person more or less. So long as I want to love that person, even if that person refuses the deeds of love, still, my love exists!

Perhaps we see love right now as something so 'surface'. Something so easily seen. And the world has definitely influenced us very well through movies, through dramas, through songs, books and even businesses! However, if we really ask ourselves even as we may be together with our loved-ones, how much does love exist in the fulfillment of that expectations, i would say that its almost to none.

God first loved us. God died for us, and risen so that we may be able to experience love in that purest form. Its so difficult to understand and grasp that idea of such love when the world we live in today is so real in this.

I thought about this... I guess that the best part of loving someone is when Forest loves Jenny, and whatever Jenny does, though it hurts Forest a lot, yet doesnt change the way Forest loves Jenny. Though Jenny does not stay with Forest, nor reciprocates to his love, still, there is something more precious than whats visible, its the love and connection that Forest has for Jenny that no body, not even Jenny, can take from Forest. :)

What a therapeutic session for me. Really convicted me in my love for people around me especially to those who are often so difficult to love. Truly, there is nothing more that I can do but to put in love in my servitude to them. I believe though, like a parent to his kids, that one day, they will all understand what I do.

What a tiring week it has been for me. Been v fearful and drained out. Am looking forward to my good nite sleep now. Hopefully I can handle tomorrow better with better vigor and spirituality.

posted by jokejong @ 7/04/2006 12:46:00 AM