This is My Prayerwall

New found love...

Been sometime since I last pinned down my thoughts in this wall.. Thought that it will be a great thing to do today. :)

I learnt from a sister just yesterday that Love aint suppose to be earned. Its kinda difficult for me to swallow, as I have always believed that faith without deeds is dead. Growing up in an environment where I need to be independent, capable and adaptive, I took lots of pride at my endurance, and how I can fix and handle so many different things and issues. Pride welled up inside me. That I must conffess. And when love reaches a point where I need to let go and let God, I realize it was really difficult. Love, to me, simply had to be earned. Believe in it as much as I would, but the fact remains, I need to do something for love to grow.

I was reading chapter 1 of a book by Max Lucado entitled Love worth giving... Not really my favourite author per-say, but he wrote a very convicting 6 hours one friday which I have on my shelf. I truly recommend this book on understanding the heart of God on the cross at Calvary!

And I finally got the answers to my doubts:
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The love worth keeping, Have I learnt to accept?
So un-believing, I lived in simple denial.
Not the possibility of such love ever exist,
That's what i oft complained in sorrow.
But one who has been forgiven many,
Is the one who will forgives many.
How true is this statement, I ponder...
And how difficult is its acceptance, I struggle.

Can you fill me with your love, Sovereign Lord...
Will your heart be opened up for Me, my child.
Is it really that easy oh God?
Looks simple, hard to break through your will.
Is it that I do not trust You?
I believe in you yet there are old habits simply hard to kill.
Can I take this step of faith in love?
Its in your hands that my nailed hands are waiting to hold...

Thus begin, a new walk with God.
Knowing that I can never repay His love,
Always grateful, this reminder I have.
Never empty, for God is who'll fill me...

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Joke Jong 2006-july Inspired by A love worth giving from Max Lucado.
All thanks to Joanna who lent me that book. :)

posted by jokejong @ 7/23/2006 08:36:00 PM